Okay this may be the gross entry I have ever post in this blog, but I can't help but to share. Right, not just I want to share, but I want it to be a record, for myself hehe ;)

This is not ear wax. This is pus.

I pulled this thang out from my ear. Geli kan? I know I know. And this is the second time I managed to pull it out by myself, after trillion trials. The first time I managed to do it, I was seriously seriously surprised and shocked, I mean the ***** is this?!!! For the second time pun, I was still shocked >.< Tapi seriously the feeling memang lega gila after this thang keluar *happygirl* sebab suddenly pendengaran tu rasa clear semacam. Kalau tak, memang sentiasa terasa telinga dimasuki air which is sangat-sangat annoying. Macam tingal dalam air pulak, blup blup! 

Just imagined, this is the build up pus for a week. Sebab hari tu kan (recently) dah pegy cuci dekat klinik UiTM - the day I went to the HTAN. Too much for a week ayy? I guess, my antibody is working hard, real hard.

With love, Aida Rasyidah xoxo

Out of sleepiness

I can't help but to wholeheartedly miss being at here!! :'(

at 7.31PM

I miss how I used to 'squeeze' myself just to get in the bus, I miss waking up seeing heavy mist thru the window,  I miss how I mad when the Anjung Sri Perpatih ran out of food, especially on weekends, and on the mornings -.- I just... miss everything in this college. I even miss having bath at college! ;DD

I found this picture of my UiTM Negeri Sembilan at Facebook. I didn't realised it was sooooo "hutan" until I saw this picture hahaha :pP The buildings on the right is our college, and the smaller buidings on left is our faculty. Kecik kan? And so hutan! Nearly 10km away from the town! -.-"

Okay so actually am having sleepover at Jama's house (at college) is solely because am gonna have to be at faculty as early as 7AM on Monday because I will be having my first MUET speaking test. Arhhh so not ready for this. Tapi hadap je lah >.<

*Happy girl* =)

With love, Aida Rasyidah xoxo

My life is officially depending on meds

In November 2011, I had problems with my left ear right? Guess what, after almost 2 months and half, it has turned into never ending problems -_-" I don't really know, exactly, about the fungal infection that the doc mentioned it to me. But I think it is not that severe. It just my left ear is constantly humid and having pus for like, everyday? So  yesterday I did follow-up with the medical attendant, he washed my left ear, again. And you know what? Before this, the M.A did washed my left ear, twice. And I get this instant dizziness, almost pass out! The moment he injected sodium solution into my ear, with this super high pressure of syringe, I was like.... seeing stars everywhere. For the first time in my life, I saw everything was spinning like crazy. I even puked!! But yesterday was different. At first, I refused to let him do the washing process because seriously, the dizziness that come after the process was super annoying because I can't really walk since everything is still spinning and have to lay down for about an hour, also, taking meds! Urghhh -_-" But then I said, arghh what the heck. Just get this thang outta my ear! The moment he injected sodium chloride solution into my ear, my heart recited ayat Kursy. I just constantly recite and recite and just hope that I won't get really dizzy. And... miracle did happened :') For the first time of washing ear, I didn't get dizzy! At all! Well, there's a tiny bit but I can handle the dizziness. The power of Kursy. Alhamdulillah :') :') Allah did lend me a some of His strength. I'm.... just speechless :')

After he washed my ear, he examined, once again. He freaked me out by saying he saw something black, shiny, and eyelike! I was like... okay before I punch you in the face, jangan main-main boleh tak?! Ada ke nampak benda hitam bersinar macam mata dalam lubang telinga aku?! Pulak tu boleh tanya, "Awak ada rasa benda bergerak-gerak tak dalam telinga?" Dush!! I feel nothing, takda benda bergerak-gerak pun. Apa neyyyyy :'( Because of he wasn't sure, he wrote a letter to Hospital Tuanku Ampuan Najihah (HTAN) Kuala Pilah, specifically about my left ear diagnosis and arranged an ambulance to bring me there. I was like.... whateverrrrrrrrrrrrr -.-

While waiting for the ambulance, I had a very nice nap ;))

I was surprised to see Haziq & Syazwan at the clinic - to check up on me! Although they were there asking question "Aida, lelaki ke perempuan?" By means of 'lelaki ke perempuan', they talked about pregnancy. Bengong! ;DDD And Mak (Pika), was there the whole time :')

The ambulance sent me straight away to Emergency. Gila la kan? Sakit telinga terus daftar dekat emergency hahaa X) Once again, I was surprise to see, not Haziq or Syazwan but Aiman at the hospital. To check up on me!! I told you, my boys are the sweetest things :') Mak (Pika) also was there, from the beginning :') So after "few" minutes (am sure you are well informed about goverment's hospital service), the doctor called me. He asked me few things, then he asked me to got to the partial critical ward (yellow zone) which originally I was at public ward (green zone). I was okay... okay am I really that sick sampai masuk satu wad dengan orang yang terlantar atas katil sebab kemalangan? Aaaaaaaaa feels like screaming my lungs out! Rupa-rupanya takda pape pun. Dye saja suruh masuk sebab nak check telinga je hehe ;) By the way, masa dalam bilik doktor tu, ada seorang doktor perempuan masuk bawa x-tray tu. Ada budak tertelan 50 sen! Almost reached his pelvic girdle (tulang pinggul) dah! Gila ahhhhhhhhh! Terkejut aku tengok x-tray tu -_-"

The doctor prescribed me these meds. Nasib baik takda ubat titik dah. Kalau tak sengsara jugak. Ohh forgot to mention, walaupun telinga kiri ney sometimes berair, tapi tak terasa sakit pun. Just gatal. Pelik kan? Allah, apa lah penyakit ney :(

This is antibiotic pills. I know I know. The doctor couldn't be any crazier. Haihhh banyaknyaaaaaaaaa! Baru ingat nak ganti puasa (dan-dan la kan) tapi tak dapat la sebab I have to take all those meds 4 times a day sampai habis. Sobsobs.

And me got an appointment with ENT (Ear Nose and Throat) specialist this 8th March. Sebulan lagi. Lama gila kan? I tried to move the appointment to an earlier date sebab March is examination month tapi tak dapat. Semua dah penuh. And 8th March is the earliest possible appoinment. Warghhhhhhhhhhhhh T_____T

By the way, doktor HTAN tak nampak pun benda hitam bersinar-sinar macam doktor UiTM cakap. Big yeayyy (Y) :))

Shoutout : THANK YOU Pika, Aiman, Haziq & Syazwan :')       ♥ ♥ ♥

With love, Aida Rasyidah xoxo

Lets hope for the best

Bismillahi tawakkaltu 'alallah la hawla wala quwwata illa billah

With love, Aida Rasyidah xoxo

Some part in me..

Its 1.30 in the morning, and I'm buzy-ing myself with packing my stuffs back to Kuala Pilah at 9AM. As I was packing, my hand grabbed a box in my cupboard. Which full of my jeweleries. Its like my hand unconciously moved, picked an earing, and pierced it to both of my ears. I know my ears have always been amazing - no matter how long I did not wear any earing, the holes will not close. And... its been years. Turning 3 years this year, specifically :')

And... I untie my hair. I looked in the mirror. What I see was... the old me. I ran my fingers through my hair, my earings. 'This is how I look few years back' <-- I kept saying this to myself. And small part in me says I miss this "old me". If few years back, I was very particular about my hair, and shamely, I am not now. By particular means, I don't go to "local" haircuts (because I was afraid they would  disappoint me) because we, the girls (Ibu, Alyaa Ain & Me) , have our own favourite hairstylist. So every 3 months, Ayah would drove us to KL just to get our hair done. For years. When the hairstylist moved to Selayang, Ayah even drove us there. Just to get our hair done. When I started to wear tudung, I stopped go to any saloon. For 2 years. 2 years. Just because I refuse to go to "local" haircuts. My hair is very important to me ^_^V What I had in mind was - 'Nobody gonna see my hair, so I couldn't bothered to get my hair done, professionally'. And there's no point going to expensive saloon when I'm going to 'destroy' the art by squeezing it inside the scarf. Only when I started to noticed my hair becomes very dry, and having split ends here and there, I finally decided to go for "local" haircuts. As I thought, the haircut wasn't really fascinating, but ahh like whatever nobody gonna see. However, last 2 months, I finally stepped into a professional saloon. I even get an isolated room! :)) And the haircut was... perfectly done! I was stunned and like "Woooo haven't seen this style for ages!" I was amazed. And was about to cry! How long have I've been negleted you, dear hair? :(

Its the same case happened tonight. Only its not about hair. I looked deeper in the mirror. My hands were all shaking. And some part in me says "I miss this girl. I miss how this girl looks" but its okay because am in better place, right now :')

One of my favourite earings. The one and only earing I wore TOO often :')

I even bought an earing that goes with a matching long-threadlike-necklace! 

And this is my favourite necklace above all  :)

Knowing I don't wear all those stuffs anymore, tears me apart. Its not like I wanted to wear it publicly or so. It just... feels weird to wear this kind of jeweleries in the house :D

Still, some part in me, misses these kind of stuffs. 

Nevertheless, am very thankful for what I am right now. Alhamdulillah ♥

With love, Aida Rasyidah xoxo

It cost me an hour to choose!

I need serious discussion with my parents. First thing in the morning.

With love, Aida Rasyidah xoxo

A bit more tougher

I'm all whining up about what course should I pursue... But as am having discussions with my mates, there's another issue coming up. Marriage. Big word which comes with big responsibilities. Everybody's talkin' about finishing degree, get a nice and steady job and settle down. Me? I did the same thinking too. I even give it a thought when I'm in secondary school ;D I aimed for 24/25 years old. But but when I attended Ain's wedding, it came to my senses, not so fast! Pelik kan? Orang pegy majlis nikah lagi la berkobar-kobar nak kahwin. Tapi terbalikk pulak dengan aku >.< Seriously, apart of  "cantiknyaaaaa Ain" thought, I thought of this, all the time I was there - "Ain dah jadi isteri orang. Dah tak boleh nak buat hal sesuka haty, kena jaga pergaulan, jaga haty suami blablabla" Glup! I'm really not ready for that. Especially the part when you can't really do the things you want, like you used to. Its like, no moreeeee freedom! Imma girl who can't really take orders, especially from a man (well, my dad's excluded :p) you can't do that, you can't go there and such. No no no! Well, of course, with a solid reason, it is negotiable ;DD Entah lah. I can't imagine myself got all locked up when most of the time I'm like a bird, just fly and to where is the second thought. At times, I come into certain stage - I enjoyed my single life. Which practically means, no commitment. Wait, I think as much as I've been thinking lately, I think I'm afraid of commitment. I am. I mean like, why in the world am I growing up so fast?!! I still consider myself as Ayah & Ibu's princess who had just learned the first bicycle riding lessons! I wanna get married, eventually, of course, but I don't wanna "really" get married. You get what I mean? :DD I mean, its a nice thing to have someone in your life, that you can grow old with but its not so nice when it hits you that you have to wake up earlier that him, just to prepare his work shirts, his breakfast, his laundry and such! Well, at first, it could be lovely. But as time passes, I wonder how long I will put up. I mean, it doubles up your chores. And it does not care if you're freakin' tired or so. Still, gotta make the chores done. Plus, you can't really hangin' out with girlfriends, or others, 'till midnight which is the most current favourite activity when semester break hits. And having babies? Baby is cute. Really. But the responsibilities that come with the baby? Errr not so cute ayy? ;D You have to homeschool them and all sort of things. What happens if you mislead them? Arghh cannot think any of it anymore! I shouldn't have talk about this. I'm still young. Too young. This is an adult conversation. And you, yes you, who is about my age, get yourself a degree first! Well, that may be me hehe :p You.. get mentally prepared first! 

Maybe I'm just not mentally prepared to settle down. And to that, at the age of 21, I strongly re-think about getting married at the age of 24/25. I think, at this time, a big no. There are just too much of things to think of. Which I rather not to. At least at the time being ;)  I hope when the time comes, I'll kickin' some ass haha X) I hope this isn't the effect of watching Desperate Housewives :pP

Ayah and Ibu are so gonna spank me for talking about this, and not focusing on my studies hahaha peace out Ayah Ibu ^_^V

With love, Aida Rasyidah xoxo

Life's never been easier

Currently listening to Kelly Clarkson - Stronger

Obviously, my condition right now has nothing to to with the song :DD I'm about to finish my diploma studies in approximately 2 months away. I should be 'stressing' myself out about my final results but am currently not. I'm more concern on what course should I take in pursuing my studies. At times, I've come to one point, 'Shooot. Can I just not do anything? I wanna be diploma kiddo forever' =.= I've clear visions and missions about my studies, back in school. I wanna be the Gil Grissom, Horatio Caine and of course, Mac Taylor. They are all my favourite characters in CSI series. I even used to stay for 3 hours in front of the TV for this CSI series marathon. I even told myself, I won't go for chasing around Doc title, I wanna be a coroner! I wanna rip those lungs, heart even the eyes out, with my bare hand. I just wanna 'Chop!Chop!' :DD Even in my school days, I went to counselling room, just to know what is the right path I should take so that I could make my dreams become reality. My councellor said that I should take Diploma In Science so that I can further my studies in forensic field. So without hesitation, I chose Diploma In Science as my first choice. And.... I almost complete my diploma studies. Two years and half, with ups and downs :') Sekarang am having problem nak pilih course for degree studies pulak. Nak jumpa kaunselor pun taktau nak tanya soalan apa. Sadis tak? T_____T I need more time, I guess. Tapi my time fills with me worrying about what am gonna do the next 5 years, without actually 'did' something. Haihhh.

No pin dah masuk 3 minggu beli tapi masih tak dapat dimanfaatkan lagi. Haihhh -.-'

With love, Aida Rasyidah xoxo

Karnival Karangkraf 2012!

Selain nak memanjakan diri dekat rumah, kite sibuk nak balik minggu ney (walaupun minggu depan balik lagi sebab cuti Maulidur Rasul dengan Thaipusam) sebab nak pegy karnival ney hihi ^.^V So lepas balik dari our-usual-routine-places-on-Saturday, Ayah hantar Ibu Ain and Me dekat Karangkraf at Seksyen 15 Shah Alam

Sadly, jam teruk gilaaaaa! Ayah had to stop so far far away and we had to walked to Karangkraf >.<

Kemain tau budak tu peluk beriya lagi "pintu gerbang" tu hahaha :pP Time ney panas gilooo. Believe or not, although am only there for like an hour plus, tapi muka merah gila and badly tanned!! =.='

Masa mula-mula masuk beriya la usha khemah kiri kanan. Then bila nampak booth bernama "Ayu Emelda" its like time stops for a second. I was like..... "Ehh ney nama penulis novel. Okay please tell me Aisya Sofea is here. Please!!!"

*Remember I said this 5 months back? Yeapp on entry - All about Aisya Sofea ♥ *

Mata meliar mencari booth. Just few seconds, lagi sekali Bumi macam berhenti berputar :DD I was stunned! Terus terjerit "Ibu!! Jap Syida nak ambil gambar dengan dye. Favourite author ney!!" 

Dalam haty meronta teruk gila tahu takkkkkkk!! Rasa macam nak jerit "Tepy tepy aku nak ambil gambar dengan Aisya Sofea!" Hahahaha! :pP Dalam pada tu, jari jemari sibuk bergerak update Twitter haha!

Me : Nak ambil gambar boleh tak? *desprado gila bunyi :D*

Aisya Sofea : Boleh. Ambil gambar je?

Me : Novel semua ada dah! *Bangga gila time ney haha!*

Kenape dye nampak lagi excited bergambar dari aku ney? :DD

Warrrghhhhhhh sampai sekarang nak menjerit sekuat haty dah dapat jumpa, salam, bercakap & ambil gambar dengan Aisya Sofea. Walaweyyhhhh she just made not just my day, my 2012!! :DD

Okay clearly am going to sleep with this card, tonight! Haha! Happy gila dapat jumpa penulis yang novel-novel dye aku baca almost 10 years back! Its like I grew up with her writings!! Awhhh :') Jangan taktau, aku sanggup laminate card ney haha :p

By the way, esok hari last karnival ney. Boleh tak nak ajak Ayah pegy lagi sekali just nak mintak  autograf Aisya Sofea dekat semua novel-novel dye yang kite kumpul? Boleh tak?!! Am dying just to meet her! I pray more meetings with her to come! Amin! (Korang pun amin cepat sekarang! :D)

Sakan bebenor

If you knew me well, you know I just love snakes! Kulit dye buat kite geram ohh. Rasa nak picit-picit, gigit-gigit je!! Perasan tak beriya aku pegang badan ular tu? Kalau boleh ketatkan genggaman tu tanpa di belit di kemudian hari, dah lama lunyai ular sawa ney aku buat! :DD Tapi tak puas haty time ney sebab abang-abang ney pegangkan untuk kite! -.-" 

And she is just lovely!!! ;) Dynas, the actress.

Semangat dah bawak baki voucher buku RM50. Ingat nak shopping novel kat sini. Maklumlah 30% katanya? Dangggg kalau pegy kilang pun dapat tak sampai 15% kayy. Tapi orang masyaAllah, subhanaAllah ramai gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaa tengah beratur dengan berbakul-bakul novel + buku. So tak jadi la membeli belah. Panas gila hokkayyy and tak sanggup nak beratur kemain panjang lagi haa. Kalau beratur ada dekat sejam baru termasuk dalam golongan 10 orang yang bakal sampai ke cashier. Takpe lah, bukan rezeki kiteee :(

Tadi kat Twitter dapat tau Aaron Aziz nak datang karnival ney malam tadi. TAKPELAH TAKDE REZEKI JUMPA KEKASIH PUJAAN HATY T_____________T

With love, Aida Rasyidah xoxo

Happy girl, it is!

Tadddaaaaaaaaaa! Yeappp, as an IPTA student, am entitled to received this vouchers! Hip hip hoorraay! :)) Actually it have already landed on my hand before CNY hols but then I didn't use it until yesterday (yes am home! ;) and gonna be home next weekend, too!) when I was on my way to Putra LRT at Pasar Seni (I thought of spending it at Kinokuniya, KLCC) but then, my eyes suddenly caught Popular Bookstore at Jalan Tun H S Lee. Without a second thought, I rushed into the bookstore with a bucket in my hand! :DD 

Diary, 7 Faber Castle blue pens, Pilot highlighter, 2 Pentel refill highligter, Pilot black pen, Stabilo Exam Set, Super Glue, Sensonic earphone, Lady Bug flash drive & Felton bottle

After an hour an half, this is what I bought! Well, frankly I didn't really make full use of it. I have not found any types of books that are interesting, or, educational. To me lahh. So yeah, jangan kata items nampak sikit but it cost me RM100! =.=

I reached KLCC almost 5 o'clock. Which at first I took the wrong LRT sampai Kerinchi -_-" This is because I was so focus at my new amazing earphone which have its own porch bag!! o.0

When I entered KLCC, the first thought is okay am going to mosque now because I haven't perform solat yet. Then straight away to Kinokuniya. That's the plan. Sorry, that was the plan because after solat, I bummed into Vincci store. Then... 

And when my eyes so this brown shoe, I couldn't help but to grab and pay for the first try! Omg! I've been searching for this type of shoe for so long kot! Thats why I didn't consider second thought when buying it! ;) Harga pun reasonable. Guess what? I only have to pay half from its original price which is RM75. Yeayy! ;) Selesa gilaaaaaaaaaa pakai kasut ney! 

Nearly 7PM baru I decided nak masuk Kinokuniya after wandering around :DD I found this dictionary, Spanish which am dying to have it! But then tak sempat beli because Ayah dah nak sampai KLCC and I have to put back the dictionary :( But its okay! Because am coming back to KLCC tomorrow before headed back to Kuala Pilah. Oxford Spanish-English Dictionary, you are so mine!!

Anyhow I went to Books and etc bookstore at Tesco and bought this tears-flowing-books!! I can't believe by just reading its synopsis, my eyes got blurry. Really blurry :'( Plus, the store played this really touching song about Allah (aku sayang Allah by Wali Band if am not mistaken). I have been so far far far away from Allah, haven't I? I did perform prayers, five times a day. I did read Quran every Maghrib. It just so shame that my heart doesn't always there with my body gesture when performing solat. Allahuakhbar :'( I'm lost and I'm gonna find the right track back. Guide me, ya Rabb. Amin.

By the way, yang buku '21 Tip Bagi Yang Sukar Solat Subuh' really caught me laughing! I mean, bukan sukar solat Subuh ye. Sukar bangun solat Subuh. Bertepek kena kat batang hidung sendiri :DD Thats why I bought it. I don't wanna be late for Subuh prayers, anymore. I really am. It just... when I'm sleeping, even 3 head-banging-alarm-clocks didn't manage to wake me up. There was time when I wake up and checked my cell as usual. I was kindof heart attack to see the figure 47 missed calls (hmmph not exactly 47 but around that figure. Can't really recall) from mi bffs - Nes and Wani. I think that morning that I over-slept, we're planning on going somewhere. Sigh. I. NEED. NEW. SOLUTION.

With love, Aida Rasyidah xoxo